

Oh shit! I'm back got damn it! feels like I been out of synk with my page for so long and all that read it. So hell since I got time here at work I decided to do a quick update. I have a JOB at Allied Interstate, which is a collections company, but I work on insurance, this gotdamn job aint paying me what I am worth but shit I got to start somewhere, I have come to the conclusion that Morris, my school up north aint right for me, so I came back home and got a job and now I am planning my future. Shit time aint on my damn side, so this acting, singing and fashion line I want, I need to invest my time in that. So first thing first is to save some money so I can be closer to my dream, which is being in LA. I think I will pack up and move to Vegas this summer, that way i will be closer to LA and auditions and shit. I cant explain how I feel right now, I feel like so much has been lifted from me, its like God heard me all this time and now he is pushing me to do what my heart wants me to do and I cant even lie, I am so excited and scared at the same time, but shit I got to be ready for my chance, so I been making plans so that when it hits me in the face, I will be ready! other then that I just been on the grind, kicking it with my sister and her homegirls, they is a mess! they remind me of how I was at 18 and 19. lol woo lawd ` you couldnt tell my ass not a damn thing. I havent been writing any poetry, but I will get back on the ball with that too, I just have to get myself in this schedule, oh! and I am thinking about getting another job too in a few weeks, Jacks! is on a mission .. ahahah! niggas? I am so koo` I got too much shit goin on right now, that stress of a man is the last thing I need, I have seen that this last almost year I have changed, I have seen my weaknesses and I refuse to let another take advantage of them, so until that man comes along who will be there for me, love me and support me! these niggas need to STEP!
So I came up with this analogy that to achieve your dreams its like winning the Jackpot at Vegas... Why? well I was thinking about dreams and how they are achieved, well no dream is achieved without determination and hardwork right? well those who play the slot machines and win at them go back and go back, keep on trying, even when there broke or even when those who see them doing this talk about them, but what happens in the end? Shit those who keep on trying, end up winning the JACKPOT and shit that is what I am trying to get too, my Jackpot! that is just sitting in the skies waiting for me to reach out and touch the damn thing, so I tell all, if you got a dream, hell a thousand of em, dont quite, keep trying and you will achieve everyone of them. I know I will be successful and I aint got no time for these fake ones, I'm bout to do this gotdamn thing! wink` yeah I think I'm da shiiiT! but hell I am. j